Running, and running...

Last night I had a great game of netball! I was so wired at the end of it - and so darn proud of myself!

My team has always looked after me because I have been large, and quite unfit - and simply not able to play all the positions on court due to my poor fitness levels. Well, for my size I was doing OK - but couldn't hack playing too much too long.

But all that has changed now that I've lost so much weight. These legs, which were once having to run, jump and leap with an extra 23kgs are now helping me travel around the court on what feels like wings! It feels so good to really get out there and RUN. Well, at least it *feels* like running - and I'm sure it looks somewhat like running too...

For those that understand netball, I thing GD can be the most physically demanding position, closely followed by C. Depending on the oposition of course. WELL, last night I played GD for 1/2 a game and C for a 1/4!!! And THEN WA for a 1/4. We only had 6 in our team - so there was actually a bit MORE work to do.

Felt so good to be able to outrun my stick thin, younger opponent - felt bloody good! Even the opposition coach complemented me after the game! Hot damn!

My Mum still plays too (yep, bloody great for a 60 year old) and I've noticed she's running so well lately too - I think the team we have really helps.

Great to have those endorphins working for you. Wonderful actually.

Wired!

Hi all! In my quest to work out why I'm so tired all of the time, I had a in-home sleep study done last night. They come over and attach wires and belts all over you, and then the machinery records your breathing, leg movments, eye movements, snoring etc. I looked a total SIGHT! wires and bits going everywhere! Going to the loo was NOT EASY!

Anyway, I'm hoping this will help work out the fatigue, because I really need to not be so tired - it makes it hard to deal with issues when they come up - and I just can't concentrate as well as I should be able to.

I'm also going to have another test for my thyroids as my last one was borderline. A normal thyroid has a result between 0-4 on this one test, and apparently mine was 4.3 - so the doctor want's to test again.

Apart from that... I have a huge stack of assignments sitting here not marked - oh, so many of them! And, I do tend to add a lot of comments - so each one is taking me over an hour to do - must cut back a bit! Sorry students.

OK... off to do some work... ;)

Don't be good.

Drama Street Grand Central Station

Oh, ARRRRGGGGHHHHHH... I'm so over drama at the moment!!! I feel like wherever I am, it finds me. And no, before you think it, I'm not inviting it in!!!

I've been away for a delightful week in Sydney - to see the Royal Easter Show - for work of course - and I got to sit and paint for a couple of days - and that was just the release I needed. I started to feel in control again - and I haven't felt that way for over 2 months! I got to breathe out.

And, then, when I came home it all started again. I really don't understand how some people can think it's OK to behave the way they do - and THEN act like you shouldn't be offended/upset. Even when you've taken the time to explain to them that their action DO really upset you and WHY!

Maybe I'm too thin skinned - but these people have hides of a rhino! I have been trying so hard to be stronger and rise above it all. AND really trying hard to NOT spend all day everyday worrying and fretting about people who don't care about me. I don't have enough time in my day to do that. It's not working too well though - despite my really wanting it!

On a positive note, there are people in my life that surprise me in a very good way as well. I know that - and I need more of that. I need to be pumped up with some goodness juice so I'm fortified when those that think belittling and degrading your best efforts is a way to move forward. That when you put your hand up to volunteer to slog your guts out every other minute of your day that you're not working, that you automatically volunteer to cop abuse. I'm sorry, but that's not OK with me. It's never OK.

So, how do I stop feeling so damn upset? How do I stop myself from crying? How do I just switch off? How do I do the right thing by the people I'm responsible for? Sometimes it all feels just too hard to get it all right. Other times I'm just 'over it'.

Can I close my eyes and hope they go away?

Still alive :)

Hi all

Sorry it's been so long... I've been pretty snowed under, and just not wanting to get on here and have a whinge - and there's been so many people that have disappointed and upset me in the past few weeks that I know that's what it would have turned into! So I know purge myself of all of that rot - and good riddance to it all! For all of those people who have upset me recently I refuse to give you anymore of my energy - I'm going to save that for my friends and family!!!

Talking of which, my sister Kerry has been up for the past week or so - and it's been a blinding whirlwind since she's been here. I took time off work so I could spend time with her - but really haven't had as much time as I wanted due to all my other commitments - but it's still been good.

My other sister Jodie had her 30th birthday party on Saturday night - a 70's themed afair... here's some of the pics.... click on them to see full size images!


Oh, and we bought a NEW CAR!!! I'm now the proud owner of a new Toyota Yaris YRS - midnight metallic blue 5 door hatchback (automatic). Love it!!! Just got to stop driving like I'm in the Camry now.... still allowing way too much space that I don't need to.

Anyway, that's all I'm up for tonight - got to teach all day tomorrow... so best get to bed....

Be good! I'll leave you with some random pics...